I’m on to something here – but I’m not sure what it is. Bear with me as I collect my thoughts.
When I woke up this morning, I had the thought “This is the first time in my life that I have a life.” What I was thinking of, was my simple life in a simple town in Costa Rica. As contrasted to the life I left behind in the States – where my life was scattered all over the place. I finally have time to pull my life together – from all the scattered pieces I had before.
I was also thinking about my girlfriend, back in Silicon Valley – who was very concerned by what other people thought of her. If we were out for a walk, just the two of us – she would worry about what other people – people walking by us on the sidewalk – would think of us. I thought that was irrelevant – the only thing important to me – was me and her, and how we were relating.
That relationship did not last too long. She was outside-oriented and I was inside-oriented. And there was no way we could get together.
Let me put this another way – they are hollow-people, without a center. Something they are proud of “Look at me, I’m not here!”
I ask myself “How can a society by built of components that do not exist?” But all I have to do is go back to the States – and see this is going on – vigorously. They are parts of a machine – that works much better if its components do not have concerns of their own.
But this brings up problems, problems of ethics – what if the machine is bad? The example, which immediately comes to mind – was Nazism. Eichmann could say, completely truthfully – that he was only following orders. But this problem comes up in less drastic situations, in any organization. People find they can get ahead faster – if they don’t rock the boat. If they are smart enough – they can leave the boat before it sinks.
This ignores the damage to them personally. We are born with honesty built into us – and when this is violated, this causes serious internal damage. I grew up with a boy from my hometown of Ft. Madison, Iowa. He married one of the nicest women I have ever known – but followed a different career path. I became an Electronic Engineer – and he worked his way up in the Pentagon. He ended up with much more money – but lost his wife – because she lost her mind.
When your life becomes too crazy – you become crazy yourself.